#WeekendCoffeeShare: Mood-altering drugs edition

coffee2If we were having coffee, I’d spend most of my time yawning, possibly mixed with a few by-now patented glassy stares.  Week One of being on Lexapro hasn’t been unpleasant, necessarily, but being tired all the goddamn time has officially gotten old, and my motivation to do much of anything has been chopped to the bone.  This is a bit of a problem; I have a final manuscript for Searching for Malumba due in a few days, and haven’t really found the will to do much of anything about it, and I literally forgot that I was supposed to write a recap of last week’s Fear the Walking Dead for Sourcerer today.

Forgot.  Clean, completely forgot, until waking up this morning, well after it would normally have been published.  And the way my mornings typically work on Saturday there’s not an hour and a half to go sneak away and watch the episode and recap it, so right now who the hell knows when I’m going to get that written.

(For those of you thinking “Why not do it right now, instead of the post you’re writing?”: Reasonable thought, but this post will take ten minutes.  I have ten minutes.  I don’t have ninety.)

This is also a big birthday weekend.  Fun fact: my father-in-law’s birthday is the day before my mom’s, and my mother-in-law’s birthday is the day before my dad’s.  Well, mom’s birthday is today, so FIL’s birthday was yesterday.  Inverting the proper order of things, we saw my parents yesterday and we’re seeing my wife’s today.  We’re going to go see The Martian tomorrow, too, which I’m really excited about, in a sort of Lexapro’d “yeah, whatever” sort of way– I’ve been looking forward to this movie since the day it was announced.  There aren’t any superheroes in it!  And I’m seeing it anyway!  It’s like a miracle!

(Skylights is free today and tomorrow.  I’m hoping to steal some Martian thunder.  We’ll see if that happens.)

This is the part where I’d usually go “Hmmm, what else?” but the simple fact is all I’ve done all week is sleep and stare at the internet.  There really is no more “else” here.  So I’m kicking it over to y’all again:  what have you guys been doing while I’ve been trying to alter my brain chemistry?

6 thoughts on “#WeekendCoffeeShare: Mood-altering drugs edition

  1. I hope that you will sort out things soon. I already downloaded skylights, and I will hopefully be doing reviews sometime soon, but I am just getting back into blogging and writing. And get scolded at when I use my phone to read rather than a book in the evening…

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  2. hey, we have that birthday, in june: evie, 14; mom, 15; g’ma, 16; uncle bill, 18; bill’s mom, 20.

    only one of them fusses to be visited and feted, though. and it’s not the teen or the senile one.

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  3. When it comes to mind-altering experiences, I’ve just returned from a week at Byron Bay, which used to be hippy central before the yuppies moved in. It’s still very creative though and I have had a real blast just being immersed in its natural beauty. I have no need of the other forms of mind-altering stuff readily available in the area but I wish I could find a free typist to help me write up all my “stuff”. I was constantly inspired and wrote a manifesto! xx Rowena


  4. Ugh. I didn’t do well on Lexapro because it made me feel so sluggish. Hope that evens out for you.

    With the exception of Little Jedi, everyone in both of my immediate families was born between August and February, so the end of the year and holiday season are always full of family togetherness. By the time the last birthday dinner is over, I don’t want to see anyone until next August. lol

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  5. Luther, I have a few unorthodox suggestions for you other than using drugs to control your anxiety/mood. My reason for suggesting this to you comes from personal experience, so take it with a grain of salt. Allow me a moment to explain… I have suffered from depression since I was a child and severe anxiety since 2005. I was on 6 different medications for depression, anxiety, sleep disorder, and psychosis with depression. Beginning in 2008 until 2013, I attempted suicide 7 times and was hospitalized 8 times as a result. Fast forward to today… I am on ZERO medications.

    How, you may be wondering, when my case was so severe? First, I learned Mindfulness to alleviate some of the stress and anxiety. Next, I took control of my nutrition. I cut out sugar, starches, and all grains. My diet now consists of non-starchy vegetables, good quality meats, fish and eggs, and I have learned to embrace fat… coconut oil, olive oil, butter, lard, nuts, and avocados.

    So what effect has this had on my mood and anxiety? a 100% turn around. I am not depressed, not anxious, I am sleeping better, I am not hungry all the time, and even my Diabetes is much improved. Will this work for you? I don’t know. Will you even attempt it? I don’t know. I just know it has worked for me… Mindfulness and a Low Carb/High Fat diet. I feel like a new person.. no aches, no indigestion, no mood swings… anxiety controlled through Mindfulness. My mind is clear, my thought processes are amazing, and I have tons of energy.

    And now I take my leave… good luck to you, Luther, whichever path you take.


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