… I mean, I HAVE a job, but I need … another one. For, like, a month. Money is a little bit tighter than I want it to be, mostly because I’m bored out of my fucking mind and spending money is a source of serotonin, and oh did I mention I’m bored? Because I’m fucking bored, and while I recognize this is one of the most privileged whines of all fucking time, right now I don’t know how I’m going to survive with a month until school starts. That’s so long and I need something to do now.

Which, of course, is leading to me not doing anything, because I don’t wanna. I’m considering bailing on the YouTube channel again, mostly because I don’t like external factors determining what kind of game I’m playing at any given time, and that’ll be like the third or fourth social media network in a row that I’ve put energy in to, not been able to make into anything that made any sort of money but did create obligations, and then bailed on it.

I was learning Arabic. Remember that? It got difficult and I stopped and I’m pretty sure I’ve forgotten literally everything, which is a sign that Duolingo really isn’t doing any actual teaching, because high school Spanish was thirty fucking years ago and I can still get along in Spanish and Arabic was two months ago and I can barely remember a single letter.

Blech.